At the end of the day

DISCLAIMER – THIS IS ALL JUST PERSONAL OPINIONS OF MINE, I JUST WRITE WHAT I FEEL  (don’t hate me I’m smol and soft)

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You know those moments in life when you just stop. Time slows down, the worries vanish, the pain numbs, the constant white noise of life dims, and all you’re left in is a pool of your own thoughts?

I received so much heartbreaking  news today, and most of it doesn’t even directly affect me, but it made me think, and well… you know what happens when people are left alone with their thoughts for too long. I was riding back home, staring at the little red lights of the cars in front of me sparkling away, as the sun faded slowly from an orange dusk to the familiar dark blue of night, and the only phrase repeating in my mind was ” At the end of the day…”.

Really, at the end of the day all the things we worry about become irrelevant. All the numbers that loom over us our entire lives are meaningless, all the drama and gossip becomes pointless, all the time spent trying to be better than someone else is a waste. At the end of day, I wish people could look back and be happy with all the small things in life. I’m definitely not the most grateful or caring person on the planet, in fact I’m pretty cold and definitely not an avid lover of internet videos of cute dogs but, it’s these moments like today that make me think about all the things we have to be smile about in life.

At the end of the day today, I got out of the car and spent a good twenty minutes just sitting on my patio looking at the colors in the sky swirl together as the moon slowly came out of hiding. It made me realize that if people sat outside and stared at the stars each night, we would all live very different lives. The vastness of the universe really does something to you that’s inexplainable… I don’t know how else to phrase it other than it makes your soul feel easy while setting your mind on fire.

At the end of the day, how is it that we, each one of us just a mere minuscule speck of life drifting along in a galaxy older than time itself in an infinite universe, believe that the problems we face every day individually are more important than anything else in the world?

At the end of the day, staring up into that indescribable blackness flecked with thousands of sparkling stars that we call the night sky, it humbles you. Seriously, no matter how famous, wealthy, intelligent or talented you are, being the best person you possibly could be and  being happy with YOURSELF is the biggest achievement any individual can achieve. It’s sad to think that we have human calculators and elementary high school grads, but, ’till this day,  finding someone who is content with themselves and life still proves to be the one of the rarest things on earth.

At the end of the day, be happy with who you are with every fiber in your body because at the end of the day isn’t that really all there is to life?

– M

Tomorrow

Tomorrow. The uncertain and inevitable. Uncertain because who knows what will happen five minutes from now; inevitable because tomorrow will come, whether we’re here or not. So isn’t it strange, how we spend almost every waking moment living for tomorrow? Honestly, think about it. We go to school to earn good grades to get a stable job for tomorrow. We work hours on end everyday so that we can retire comfortably for tomorrow. I don’t know about you, but when did life become about living after you retire? In perspective, life today has basically become a monotonous routine of going to school for 12 years, then college, then working until you die. Don’t get me wrong, that may be some people’s cup of bubble tea, but I’d rather live 40% for tomorrow and 60% for today, because for all I know the world could end tomorrow (for the what fifth time?) and I wouldn’t be able to say I got to live the life I wanted today, because I had been preoccupied cramming for a chemistry test for a tomorrow that never came.

In the eyes of a dreamer like myself, I believe our today’s should be spent partially making sure we can afford food and shelter in the future (tbh mainly food though), but mostly spent doing the things we love. Creating a dadaist piece, learning  Czechoslovakian, strumming a Hozier song, singing along to DNCE’s Cake by the Ocean, or dancing to Gangnam style for the ten billionth time (Hey, you do you fam), should be the things we do today. To me, I try and live by a rule that basically says, “In your free time, what could you do that a) isn’t illegal and b) would make the coolest story to tell as an old person?” But alas, I can’t adopt a sloth or go skydiving off of the Eiffel Tower yet and so have been forced into settling for the mediocrity of a student wishing for a tomorrow that hopefully will satisfy my imminent hunger to live life to its fullest.

So basically, I have managed to confuse myself probably as much as I’ve confused you with this post, but what my midnight caffeinated brain is trying to say is that stop pushing things off, if you can do it, do it today. Don’t try to recreate the dramatic life of the Kardashians for yourself, and end up having regrets over things that you could have done today just because you were too scared to. Take that leap off the cliff of fear and tell the person you like that they make your day. Talk to the next stranger about the weather. Send that text to that person whom you’re dying to become friends with. Eat that third donut without thinking. Go out with your friends and have so much fun that at the end of the night, your laughter is ceaseless and your smiles are forever frozen in the millions of selfies taken in those happiness-induced moments. At the end of the day even, if tomorrow never comes, at least you can say you have lived.

So live a little 🙂

P.S –  Late night Starbucks has scary side effects..aka this mess of a blog post